Friday, September 10, 2010

i've never felt so vulnerable

as i do now that i have a kid.

the thought that something bad could ever happen to him, someone who is literally a little piece of me, makes my heart hurt.  life is so fragile & it is so easy to forget how quickly things can change.

last night i stumbled upon the story of stephanie nielson, or "nie nie." i'm probably the last person in the world to have discovered her blog, but nonetheless at 11:30 pm, the time i had promised sam i'd be tearing myself away from the computer & heading to bed, i watched her story.  i bawled all. the. way. through. it.  oh my gosh, i cried & i cried.

not because i thought it was sad.  no, it was incredible.  it was a much needed reminder to me of what is really important, what really matters.  where our heads should be.

talk about gaining some perspective!  the "bad parts" of my day all of a sudden really didn't matter.  did it really matter that i had a pen leak on my shirt, possibly ruining it for good?  did it really matter that i didn't have time for a pedicure & i haven't had one in a couple months?  uh, no.

watching her story really changed the way i went throughout my day today.  every little moment is so precious & we need to be spending it with the ones we love, doing the things that matter.  letting them know how we feel about them & showing them we care.

i know i squeezed parker a little tighter today when i held him.  & then he spit up all over my shirt.  ahh well.

so here's a couple moments i captured from our day today... a day that reminded me i have a life worth living.

this morning.  bundled him up & went for an awesome run around the lake.  he l-o-v-e-s walks & runs.  my kind of kid.

on the way home. as soon as he was buckled up & the motor was running, he was out.  i never thought i could spend so much time watching someone sleep.  {sorry for the crappy quality... iphone shot.}

this afternoon.  parker decided it is really funny when mom sneezes.  so i did it again, & again & again, until he no longer thought it was funny.  here's a little clip of p-ray while he thought it was absolutely hilarious.

love that kid.

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  1. oh my goodness!!!! that video just lit up my day!!! i love baby giggles & that was the cutest thing EVER. thanks for sharing <3

  2. I totally get the vulnerable thing. I remember after Alex was born having those same feelings - like, what have I got myself into? Life isn't just about me anymore!

    I didn't check out that blog but I lOVED the video of Parker. So, so, so cute!

  3. I take that back, I have seen that video before. It's so amazing! I love it!

  4. What a great blog!! I am really enjoying looking around. Thanks for sharing!! I am now a new follower!! Nicole @ BTW I found you on a blog hop!

  5. Vulnerable. . . YES!!!! that's a state you will be in now for the rest of your life. It's amazing how much one little person can change your perspective. I guess when you become a mother you realize Life is not about you. That's a good thing.

    I have never heard about Stephanie Nielson. Think I'll watch her story. Thanks!


  6. He really is adorable!! My little man LOVES babies and he got a kick out of the video - I took a pic, I'll try to get it to you!

    Thanks so much for the reminder of what's really important.

  7. I know exactly what you mean. I've been concentrating on enjoying each and every day of this pregnancy, since our son has a long road ahead of him after he's born.
    He's SO adorable.

  8. Isn't Nie Nie's blog and story just amazing?? So inspiring. We are all better people when we can appreciate what is truly important, every single day. Our kids deserve that. :-)

  9. I have seen her story before and it is completely inspiring and amazing! I am not sure if I would have that kind of strength to make it through something like that. I would hope I would....but yes when I saw that video, I cried and cried all the way through too!

  10. oh that baby laugh is contagious! i giggled, too :)

    i had come across stephanie's blog/story a while ago and it was nice to be reminded of it again. she is so strong and incredible and i think we all could use a little reminder about what's important and what isn't. time goes by quickly and things can change in an instant - i need to remember that when i'm lacking "precious" sleep or finley is screaming in a store when i just want time to shop.

  11. Holy cow, I love that video of Parker. Baby giggles are the best, and when it is because YOU are the one making them laugh, they are even better :)
    I'll check out that blog you mentioned. I always need reminders about what is important...
    Love you!

  12. Cute pics! Found you on FF, following from EcoModern Mom, on Saturday. Enjoy the rest of your weekend.

    Stacey @

  13. love this blog, so cute. im a new mom and womens personal trainer. i write about ways to stay healthy and lots of workout tips, etc! follow me if you like. :)

  14. Oh my, thank you so much for the reminder. When you said the part about an ink stain...that's something that could ruin part of my entire day. And you're right. It just doesn't matter.

    I think I saw her story on TV; I can't remember where. Thank you; I really need those reminders sometimes.

    Your pictures of your little one are absolutely precious. What a sweet face! Hope you're having a wonderful weekend. :-)

  15. I love that in the video parker's little hands and feet wiggle about when you start sneezing again. He knows whats coming and he's SOOO EXCITED, his little body can't take it! haha So cute!


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