Friday, April 1, 2011

flashback friday: april 1, 2010.

one year ago today i was thirty-six weeks pregnant.


yup.

it's april, & that means it's officially time to count-down to p-ray's b-day.  this is me exactly one year ago today.  i don't even know that girl & that girl wouldn't even recognize me.  one year changes a lot.  not only does it change your hair & the way your favorite rolling stones t-shirt fits you {yup, same shirt in both pictures}, it has completely changed who i am.


i no longer lie awake at night wondering what my baby's face will look like.  now i lie awake at night laughing to myself about all the silly looks my baby's face made that day.

i can no longer say i've never changed a diaper.  i can now say i've changed a diaper on airplanes, in the backseat of a car, on my lap, in restrooms, on benches, & countless other places.

i no longer spend an hour & a half getting ready for the day.  i've stopped blowdrying & straightening my hair & have rolled with my natural air-dried curls.  i've learned to be efficient.

i'm no longer the messiest person in my house.  i now spend a good portion of my time cleaning up the mess of toys that are left in the wake of p-ray's path.

i no longer worry about how i will find time to do the things i want to do.  i now worry about filling up my baby's free time with worthwhile activities, play dates, & things that will help him grow & develop.

i no longer worry about how a baby will change the dynamic of my marriage.  i have now fallen in love with sam on a completely different & deeper level.

i no longer wonder why moms complain so much & yet still have kids.  i now understand that sometimes you just gotta vent, but you would never change a minute of any of it for the world.

i no longer go straight from the office to my bedroom at night when going to bed.  ever.  i always stop by parker's room & watch him sleep for a minute.  every.  single.  time.

i no longer think i'll be the mom who can still "do everything" & that having a kid won't change my lifestyle.  i now know what it's like to put someone else's best interests first & change my plans to accommodate a nap.

i no longer wonder if i'll know what to do when my baby cries.  i can now comfort & soothe a crying baby with the sound of my voice but still fear the day that isn't enough.

i no longer worry about how i will be able to love a little person i don't even know.  i now know what it feels like to love someone with every single part of my being.  and then some.

i'm no longer just amy, wife to sam.  i am now amy, wife to sam & mom to parker.  i'm a mom.

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28 comments:

  1. What a wonderfull post. You captured what we, mums, all think and feel. I am on the next step. A year ago, I had two wonderful children. Wondering, how it is going to be when my older hits the teens. Will she be still that well behaved, happy, sweet girl? Or she'll suddenly rebel, hate me and all I stand for, run away...? A couple of days ago I became a mother of a teenager. Nothing changed :-)

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  2. I love this! Isn't amazing what a difference a year makes? A year ago I was wondering when it would be my turn to become a mom, never dreaming that it was as close as it was. Now, a year later I'm Mom to a beautiful 2 month old daughter. Great post!

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  3. Yep you totally got me. Big ol' tears....LOL. And the line about being able to soothe a crying baby with your voice, but fearing when it wouldn't be enough....right here. It's quite a bit for just one measly, little year....

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  4. Great post! A lot changes in a year! And the big birthday is coming up! I had a blast planning Jack's first birthday! Enjoy!

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  5. wonderful post, beautifully captured! it's amazing how much these little guys can change sooo quickly!

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  6. Absolutely love this post! It's crazy how much the little ones grow in just a year! Being a mom's a beautiful thing. And ps: you're looking fab! I wish my tummy was that flat haha!

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  7. Awe this is sooo sweet!! I love how much babies totally change your life. Such blessings!! :)

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  8. I think this is my favorite post of yours yet. I love it. I'm not pregnant, and wont even start trying for a while, but I love what you shared here.

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  9. Aw what a sweet post. On a side note... you were SO tiny pregnant... geezzzzzzz jealous much!

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  10. This was the cutest post! So creative and so fun to read!! And can I just say that you look absolutely A-mazing!!! And I love the natural curls!! :
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  11. Nicely done! Excellent writing articulating changes, feelings, experiences of your amazing life-changing year!

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  12. Wow! This post is incredible! Definitely teared up a little, and with each line I felt more and more like you were stealing the words straight from my brain and my heart. I'm pretty sure our boys are one day apart, so I love following your blog and seeing your little man grow! :)

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  13. I love your glasses and hair much better in the second pic! For realz. Stick with curls and be glad your hair can do that. Also, it's crazy to see the difference in your belly! A person was in there. Woah.

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  14. I sort of hate you because you are a skinny brat! LOL!!!

    GREAT post!!!

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  15. You look great preggo and post-preg.! Excellent job capturing all the changes that babes bring :)

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  16. This is such an inspiring and beautiful post, Amy! Thank you!

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  17. awe, so sweet. You are super thing. You look great.

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  18. The dark hair looks great on you. I love all the preggo pics you took, still perplex om how you got the same shirt to be so fitting your whole pregnancy.

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  19. Oh man I totally have tears in my eyes! Love this post Amy! PS... I have major envy on your second picture! Such a hot mama!

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  20. loved this post. thanks for sharing it. I really know what you mean with each point.

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  21. Very beautiful post!! your such a sweet girl.

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  22. Isn't it amazing how our lives change? And how natural it feels to grow along with our kids? Beautiful post! I got really sentimental and mushy during the lead-up to Levi's first birthday (which was two months ago). It's such a huge milestone, not just for our little ones, but for us as parents!

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  23. Stunning post...maybe it's my mood right now, but wow...tear!

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  24. This was fantastic! Amazing how much you can grow as a person in a year by adding a child to your life!

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  25. I adore this post Amy! So well said. XO

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